
“Before I had the opportunity to brain train it seemed as though things were happening to me and now its like they happen around me….I don’t feel like I am the target board in life anymore and I feel safe and confident in the way that I can choose to react to what happens around me. I no longer feel like the world and people control how I end up feeling, my perception is actually enough to let me decide how I should feel.
I have lived with an eating disorder that I allowed to plague me since I was 12 years old. I am now 26 and over the years I have been into at least 6 different treatment centers for help. I was labeled with just about everything…. anorexia, bulimia, bi-polar, borderline personalities, depression, obsessive compulsive, alcoholic, you name it. I always felt as though I never knew who I was and why I existed so every time I got a new label I took it on and lived it, becoming more and more lost in life.
Anything that happened in my life was too much for me to deal with and would be reason for me to fall further and further down a path of self-destruction.
Just before I started brain training I was drinking excessive amounts of alcohol (1 or 2 bottles of vodka a day on a good day). I had no idea of what normal eating was and neglected my body in everyway possible, emotionally, morally and physically. It was like I had lost my conscience and even though I was very very unhappy and hopeless I lacked the drive to turn things around. I lied to myself and to everyone around me, from a person who always has big goals and values in my life I felt like I lost it all, even my family had lost trust and hope in me. I think if I had carried on along the path that I felt so trapped in for even 2 weeks more I would never be here now.
Brain Training helped to change my whole life; instead of my own funeral I have my wedding to look forward to this November. I have a job that I can actually take responsibility for and new exciting goals.
The process I went through while brain training was amazing, not easy but worth every bit of time. I was very emotional during the training process but even after the first session I felt my internal boundaries and values coming back. I actually felt like I knew who this soul was inside my body, the soul I lost somewhere along the line. In the two weeks of brain training things changed so rapidly its kind of hard to even describe what went on…I feel like putting it into words might not do the process justice. The changes in me since then however are vast; I have not touched alcohol in almost 4 months and have no desire to at all. I recently got engaged and have a wonderful relationship with a man who loves me as much as I love him, I used to feel I had to do everything right and be perfect for someone to love me, now somebody else is happy with me just as I am too. Me refining myself has allowed other people to get close again.
I had lost the very loving relationship I always had with my parents and even this is now coming back, something I thought I could never fix.
I am taking responsibility in my life, financially, health wise, work wise, socially and have found the passion for life that I once lost. My life is worth sticking around for, something that before brain training I never thought I would believe.”
trained by
Rory
Capetown, South Africa